Day 139: Changes

I think this is the longest Matt and I have gone without seeing each other. It'll be weeks now before we get the chance, but for both of us, they will be busy weeks. Matt has discovered that for his first year of school, he will be placed in Nottingham, which means not worries about moving location. it also means that instead of going to Glasgow, I get to spend my first year in England. It's good, because it'll make the wedding easier to plan, but sad, since I was enjoying the thought of living in Scotland. Oh well, I'll need to wait another year for that.

Excitement aside, it's been very tough on Matt and I. My rapidly changing life has only highlighted how alone I feel without him, and how terrifying it is to do things alone. I miss him, so much. I forget what he looks like, what he feels like.. But I keep telling myself, it's only a few weeks now, a few fun and awesome weeks with my friends and family...

That doesn't erase my growing panic, however. My room is finally and mostly packed, with the exception of my bed. The mattress is going to my land lady, but the sheets, comforter, and pillows are now. I have yet to find a box for it, but once it is packed, we are done... Well, done with my room. Then I need to clean the kitchen, wash the dishes, and more, and more. I'm a little annoyed that my land lady is being picky about the dirt in our house, because it was not clean when we moved in, and I have given her gift upon gift of thing I cannot bring with me. Hil and I, in our housemate rage, can only handle so much. I miss support. I want to be with my boyfriend.

On the plus side, I am officially a netbook nomad. This is my last night in a house before leaving the state and couch surfing, and my beloved desktop has been shipped to Connecticut, insured and waiting to be put together. Carlton, bless him, is a good boy, and I miss him and his 22" widescreen. Funny, his monitor weighs more than Hex, my netbook. To quote Carter, all real humans have access to more than one computer. I had three; Emperor Norton is going back to Connecticut, too, sick and in need of some care, a good reinstalling.

I think, when I go to Carter's, I shall crochet. I brought a blanket I have been working on for Matt's mom, and it is a MASSIVE creation, but I am hoping Jason marathons would be a good time to get it done.